Bye, Bye Baby.

by katelin on May 29, 2019

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Last week I saw a picture of Riley at Rhys’s age wearing some shoes that we hadn’t yet taken out. So I opened up Pandora’s Box (also known as the boys’ closet) and searched until I came across the box of shoes and found not one, but two pairs that Rhys could wear now. Seriously, having kids with birthdays only a month apart is great for reusing clothes and shoes at this age.

But when I was searching through the closet I came across the messy box of packed up clothes and shoes that Rhys has already outgrown. The teeny tiny three month clothes and the six month adorable outfits and the nine month and twelve month clothes even. All of them in there, just strewn about.

And I realized, I had to make room.

So I took them all out and packed them up a little neater and moved them out.

And then I started crying.

Because I’m not passing these clothes on to any more of my kids.

Rhys is my last baby. I’m okay with that. But man, if that fact didn’t go straight to my tear ducts.

It’s such a seesaw of emotions. When I was younger (heck, even when I first started dating Matt) I always envisioned I’d have at least three kids, maybe even four. I’m the oldest of four kids and I loved growing up with a big family, even in the craziest of times.

But now, after talking about it and assessing everything in our lives, it just isn’t feasible to have another kid. So Rhys is our last baby.

So packing up his clothes just got to me. I won’t have another baby wearing them. I won’t be pregnant again. It’s just such a weird feeling. And so finite.

Life is weird. Feelings are weirder.

I will say though, that as a compromise to myself, I did still keep all of those clothes and they’re being stored at my parents’ house (because they are saints and let me keep a ton of crap there) for any of my siblings or cousins’ future babies.

So, that’ll help a bit, right?

 

Feelings are fun.

 

happy wednesday!

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La de da.

by katelin on May 8, 2019

Confession: I wrote this whole blog post about turning 35 last month and how it’s thrown me for a loop. I hit publish and left it up for a few hours. And then yesterday afternoon, I took it down. I don’t really know why. But I did. It wasn’t anything scandalous or crazy, but it was a bit all over the place and didn’t totally feel like me. So there’s that.

In any case.

Today I’m here with tidbits. Because I think that’s all I can really do right now. So here we go:
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My friend Virginia came down for the weekend after my birthday and it was so nice to have her here. We went to Travel Town with the boys, we did a Wine Walk (without the boys) and watched movies and went on walks and had good talks. And guys, why don’t all my best friends live within ten minutes?

My best friend told me she had to wake her kid up the other day and I honestly, didn’t even know that was possible. He’s not even one yet. I seriously just looked at her dumbstruck. Because what is this “wake them up” talk?
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Last week I saw the stage production of Tiny Beautiful Things with my mom. Nia Vardolos adapted it to the stage and starred in it. I truly enjoyed it. It was fresh and inspiring, just like the book.

Over the weekend, I was in Palm Springs for my girlfriend’s bachelorette party. There was drag bingo, day drinking, karaoke, dancing and a good time with lovely ladies. I truly felt my age as I was hit with a migraine, but overall it was quite lovely.

While I was in Palm Springs I rocked a two-piece. Honestly, it’s the only bathing I own. I didn’t even hesitate. Which was a huge leap, because I feel like I’ve done nothing but stress eat sweets the last few months. And it shows. But alas, I did it. And I’m looking forward to more pool time this summer.

UntitledYesterday at class, Riley made a Mother’s Day craft and when we got home he made sure to remind me that he “MADE IT FOR DADDY!” Guys, my kid is a savage.

My kid is also just a huge Daddy’s Boy. Rhys, on the other hand, is TBD. For now, he’s mainly all about mommy, but every day when Matt gets home he’s all about him. These kids, I tell ya.

The other night I had five consecutive hours of sleep and I almost cried I was so happy.
In two days this blog turns TWELVE. It’s a bit nutty really.

Eventually I’ll write again in more than snippets. Or I’ll pack this little blog up. Who knows. It’s been a great run so far.

And I’m still here. So that’s lovely.

 

happy wednesday!

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